Tag Archives: Love

On Being Requited

Goodness me, where to begin? I haven’t posted since November and so much has happened since then… 1. Way back in November I flew back to the UK and was finally reunited with the man I love. I hope we … Continue reading

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100 Days of Solitude

[with apologies to Gabriel Garcia Marquez] When I left Ed at Heathrow in July – and I actually wept, for the first time in years –  100 days stretched ahead of us until we could be together again. 100 days … Continue reading

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Countdown

This time in two weeks, Friday 15th July, I will be arriving in Bristol to meet my Viking Sousaphonist; the lovely man who has been my friend and heart’s desire for the last 6 years and for whom I carried … Continue reading

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For posterity

I want to record how I’m feeling at the moment while I’m living it, to remind myself later when the first flush of breathless and giddy emotion has given way – as it inevitably must – to the more settled … Continue reading

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Dignity, Dicing With Death and Elephant Seal Love

1. I am feeling stronger, clearer about what I want, increasingly confident about getting it and generally more in control than I have in years. And so to celebrate, this Friday I bring you a man who is clearly not … Continue reading

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What The Hell Is That Supposed To Mean?

A friend told me this weekend that Tall Pilot Guy is known as a ‘player’. She also said he was apparently a ‘really nice guy’. Now, it seems to me that a person can’t be both. So, what am I … Continue reading

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The Shipping News and Grown Up Love

Was love then like a bag of assorted sweets passed around from which one might choose more than once? Some might sting the tongue, some invoke night perfume. Some had centers as bitter as gall, some blended honey and poison, … Continue reading

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Lists. Why? Because I like lists. And because my head hurts and they're easy.

List 1: Positive Things Which Have Been Said About Me And To Me During My Life – As Near Exact Quotations As Memory Will Allow. [And without permitting my mind to dwell on the negative things said to me over … Continue reading

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And now for something completely different…

Well, I’m back, and in more ways than one. The last two weeks have been among the most interesting, intense and challenging of my life. Revelatory, even. I’m not sure that I will be able to explain exactly what went … Continue reading

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Torch

I really thought I’d put it down somewhere along the road a while ago, after the flame eventually succumbed to all the cold water my rational self had been sensibly throwing on it, but no, it turns out that my … Continue reading

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